About Me

My mother always told me... 

I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders... 

I felt things soooo heavily. 

Took hate that people showed me and let it marinate deep down. 

Despite it all I LOVED even harder...

How many times I thought...

If I could just leave this world... I would be at peace...

BUT

I looked at my sisters....
I thought... 

Who would look out for them. 

Who would have their back? 

Who would care for them? 

Like me? 

Who would, “just know”?!?

Who would be there to help my Mom...

 When no one was there? 

When those close to her try to rule her life & give her the “cold shoulder”.

When she didn’t conform.
Who would be there to tell her she is amazing and loved... 

(Because the reality is there were many times no one did.)  

When no one even noticed how hard she was working just to get by.

Who would be there to tell my talented Daddy, on his lowest days... 

To keep going because he got important beings rooting for him. 

Looking up to him... 

Counting on him to be there...

As hiapo, I was blessed with wisdom and understanding beyond my years..... If I hadn’t sat with someone I thought was the strongest... Seen his mental warfare and experienced his moments of not wanting to be here.... I myself would probably have turned suicidal. But it is in those moments of seeing the weakest part of life... Death. Or shall I say, "a wish to no longer be here...." No longer be living... That made me fight harder...

Fight to show those who do not see there worth.. What I see.... Beauty... Talent... LOVE. There isn’t a single person I have met that after some time, God has blessed me with seeing, so much potential! I can see what excites them. What things they are good at. Where they are passionate....

One day I will share the full story. Perhaps in a book... For it is long and intricately woven, this story of my life... The story of a rise. A rise in the tormented, yet talented kanaka maoli.

-A.R. 09/11/19 

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What you will find here friends will not be perfection. It may not even be grammatically correct. 

Here you will find some of my most deepest moments. Some low and some high. A collection in which when reflecting, I deemed important to share. With you friends. Why? Well... Maybe, just maybe... You can relate. I pray this brings you strength. I pray this empowers you! For I am a simple being, caught up in a chaotic world. A world that can seem so complicated. Yet, is filled with beauty. A world to flourish in. 

Red dirt stains my feet, yet I RISE.

All thanks to Ke Akua our Lord & savior above.  For loving me ohhhhh so much! Never giving up on me. Each day giving me breath.  So with this breath, I'm going to put it to good use! Starting here.  Sharing with you my stories... Hoping to bring empowerment through truth, realness, & aloha! Feel free to share your story with me as well :) 

The above entry is a journal entry of mines from September 2019.... The impression to release this blog was great. However, I wasn't quite ready.... Here we are about to hit September 2020. I am ready. 

Who am I? 

Ashly. 

Daughter of a King.

Wife & Farm Mama.

Molokai raised. 

Mana Wahine. 

Let us RISE together!